Pieces

Why do we spend so much time scrambling to make things happen, we are constantly trying to find the missing piece of the puzzle even if its the wrong shape and size......sometimes we just want it to fit and we want it to fit NOW. That is kind of the mentality I've been stuck in the past two years, I wanted to make something work that just wasn't fitting. I thought everything would match up, I thought it all would fall into place but instead it fell apart. I prayed and prayed, I begged and pleaded but I still came up missing what I needed.

God has always answered my prayers...when they were right. God has sometimes cracked the door open for me, waiting for me to respond with an obedient heart. Then there are times that he swung the door open wide (with neon arrows saying enter here!) and I just walked by pretending not to see that he clearly wanted something else for me than where I was headed. Why would I do that and who did I think I was? The King of Kings is holding open the door and I just pass by??!! What it came down to is I had a piece of my life that I thought I had under control, that I was trying (desperately) to make work on my own. But it just didn't work and I ended up running backwards hoping that same door would be opened.

Lets face it being obedient to God takes courage! It takes stepping out of our comfort zones sometimes, and then there are times we need let go, yes let go of what we have dreamt about. Are you waiting to meet your Prince charming? are you hoping to become the next big deal at work? do you just want others approval, or something as simple as being okay with who you are? I truly believe for alot of us we just want to be okay with what we have and its a struggle. Its the letting go of wanting to be perfect, to be recognized, to finding our worth in what others see in us.

God is so much more than package deals and Romeos and Juliets. Won't you lay down your pieces, the ones you so desperately are trying to make fit? God is carving the piece for you to carry, be couregous, his work takes time, its a masterpiece, you are masterpiece. Be reminded that the pieces that we are so despeartely trying to put together are the pieces that only he can make fit how they should.

XOXO
Nicole Renee