Your anxious, your exhausted, your depressed, your weary, your weak. Unfortunately
I’ve felt those ways many a times in my life due to having high anxiety- ever
since I was young I have worried. There are times when I have my worried mind
mastered and tamed but then there are times that my mind takes over and the
days are harder and longer. I hate that feeling where you just wish the day
would be over so you can go to bed. It seems like such a waste of a day to
chuck it up to wanting to be non-existent for a while. There are times I even get frustrated with God
because I know he can heal me from worry but yet it remains. But the truth is
over the years through the trials I have faced with all the stages of my fears,
anxieties, and panic attacks the only place I could find rest was with Jesus.
The only place where I could find solace in my tears was crying out to my
Savior. I have learned I won’t know the why’s to my worries but I do know how
to keep pushing through them and perhaps even overcome them in time. I hold
onto the promises of Jesus that when I draw near to him he will draw near to me,
what I sow in tears I will reap in joy, when I call out to God for help he will
come and save me, if we are in need of rest he will provide it. Jesus is the
safe place that we all can call home where perfect love drives out fear. He has
gotten me through every dark valley to see the mountaintop again, there were
seasons I experienced the most desperate droughts but I didn’t come out of them
without becoming better and learning more about God’s love.
God has our very best interests in mind. The comforting thing is that he knows
every detail of our worry and every why to our worry. I may not understand but
I do know that God has good for me and if I rest in the truth he has good for
me than I can entrust my worries to him. I can even push through the hard days
and give thanks on the days I want to wish away. He is showing me that even in
the valleys he is good, he is perfect, he is complete and I am made whole
knowing this truth. I am made capable knowing this truth. I am made strong
knowing this truth. I am made new knowing this truth.
If you worry like me and are tired
of it, I encourage you to rest in his promises, be vulnerable in prayer, thank
him for his presence, and trust that you are in his perfect and loving care.
There is no fear in
love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.
The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
1 John 4:18
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